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I was walking on this road, the same black jacket i usually used.

At that time, the sun was shining so bright, the light was blinding my vision.

I remember the time i was suffering here, the time i cherished and hate the most.

If only i didn't start it at the first place, it is all my own fault.

The pain i have to endured for everyone sake.

I was too naive and i was too young back then.

The only thing that came up on my mind is to safe something i could safe. 

Remember the nights i spent with tears, but not even a single whimper was willing to come out.

Thanks to all of them, slowly i open my eyes and see the real world in front of me now.

It's better this way, it might be better. 

I want to believe this thought, just like i believe that rain will somehow stop whenever rain come.

There is no such a "too young" and "too old" thing in this world.

But the fact that i was too weak back then is the only truth.

I always want to make everything looked fine and great.

But i didn't even realize, the innocent child inside my soul is broken.

I couldn't sleep tight no matter how i tried.

when i woke up, i always found my own tears flowed down.

It was unstoppable, it was confusing me. 

What so great about having almost everything

When you are actually broken inside

And you couldn't share to anyone how hurt it feels.

You have to safe yourself too

I have to safe the innocent child inside my soul.

It is hard to breath every single day

Show up in front of every one probably the hardest thing

Because they expect me to do better and to do it great, to nailed it.

To tell you the truth, it is suffocating and exciting at the same time. 

I remember the last time someone told me these things

"You did a great job hanging there"

"i proud of you so much because you are here"

"you must be suffered a lot"

I cried hard, i really want to tell someone that i was hurting all this time

But the fact she told me first, it was too much for me.

What did i do great on my past?

I'm blessed because there are so many people who cherish me

The touching moment when actually my presence is important for someone.

That's for me to understand and for you to know

How much i believe in everyone

How much i cherish every single thing that people gave to me

After all the obstacles that  i've been going through

I'm thankful towards all of them, i wish every single thing that great will happen for them.

Someone told me today

That in this life

Name or tittle is not important

The important thing is the story behind the names and the tittles

But somehow we managed to forget it

Yesterday, today and tomorrow

We will write a few more lines in our life story

We have to write them without any regret

Because got fall is fine, only if you planned to get up again

Because got hurt is fine only if you want to make it alright once again

When we thought it is over

Don't stop even for a moment

Because it might be your brand new start

The dreams we write on a pale paper

Don't turn them down just because you failed

The way to catch our dream

Isn't always the way we planned

But we have to believe

There is no way someone failed 

Just because they try for one more time